I'm Sorry For Being A Bother

I'm sorry for all the things I couldn't say
I'm sorry for all the days I was stuck in my ways
For when the dark took over me
For when you had to say that we were no longer we

I'm sorry for all the times I couldn't get out of bed
I'm sorry for the time we spent when we were to be wed
For when I broke the champagne glass
For when I kept falling back on my ass

I'm sorry that I was a hopeless cause
I'm sorry that I lashed out like a pack of dogs
That I stayed up all night
And that when I gave up I gave you a fright

I'm sorry for all the days you thought I could get better
I'm sorry I ever took a pen to that letter
For the days you saw the red and chose to say nothing
For the days you were busying trying to get me to eat something

I'm sorry that I had no other choice
I'm sorry the voices in my head were too much noise
That I decided to seal my fate
On today, of all dates

I'm sorry for all the things I couldn't say
I'm sorry that I couldn't stay
But I'm in a better place than where I was
Where I have nothing about to fuss

I'm sorry I ever picked up that gun
I'm sorry that you thought my life surely couldn't be done
That I couldn't outlive my brother
As no one should have to bury their sibling who is younger

I'm sorry for everything in my life
But no need to fright
I'm finally in eternal night