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I find comfort in songs about my pain
I find comfort in the words that go unsaid
I find comfort in 3 am tears that burn my eyes and
I find comfort in the feeling of my lungs burning from crying,
Screaming
I find comfort in things that shouldn't provide

My way of dealing is different
I lock myself away
I cause pain to myself
Because did you know I want to know I still bleed
That I'm still alive
I push everyone out
And I blast the thoughts out
So listen to the music I play
Because they'll say the words I'm too afraid

My pain is a different story
My back hurts when it shouldn't
Memories attached to the pain
My legs hurts
My head hurts from too much booze I shouldn't have
My lungs hurt from the cigarette I had
My eyes hurt from the tears
My body hurts from my self destruction
My wrists now hurt and are wet and red and sticky
My pain is caused by me

My lungs feel empty
My heart weights a ton
My body is too much to move
And my brain is foggy
My body is telling me it's there when it isn't

But
My comfort is valid
My self care is valid
My pain is real my pain is valid
My depression is valid
And so is yours